He got up with a splitting headache. A common side effect of a hangover. He checked the time, it was 12.30 pm.
Last night had not been an easy night. And it was not going to be easy from now.
Scene last night:
It was around 10.30pm and Chris was not at all in a mood for partying. He was never the partying types. A quite guy in college, he was always very focused on his studies. Not really a loner but he was always the 'less friends' person. Now that he had started working. Life was getting busier and busier. He had almost lost touch with most friends now. He had become a loner and after things going bad between him and Michelle lately, he had a new found liking to this loneliness.
Drinking, dancing and girls not really something that interested him at this point of life. But today was different. He had to go. It was Will's pre-wedding celebration party after all. Today if he didn't go, he was in for big trouble and he knew that for sure.
'I will come and pick you up at 10.', Nancy had said.
Whats with Girls and their 'I want to look great in the party' thing. He thought. Just when he checked his watch again, he heard the horn of her car. He locked the door and left.
Scene at the party:
He was here. At the party. Almost all by himself. Exchanging occasional smiles and 'How are yous' with a few people. Keeping away from talking much to people. He was not wanting the 'Aww, I am sorry to hear that' look from people about his break-up. He was almost done with his 3rd drink. He was feeling lighter after the second one itself. He went to the drinks counter and he had not at all anticipated this situation at all. For a second, he did not know if it was an effect of his drinking or it was real.
There she was. His Michelle. His Michelle?? Not anymore 'HIS'. He thought. She was looking as pretty as ever. The black one piece dress and long silver earrings she was wearing made her look just PERFECT. And her long straight hair. They were now much longer than the last he had seen her. He was always so very fascinated by her hair. She had not seen him as yet and he was taken aback seeing her here. As always, he could not take his eyes off her. She had done very subtle make up and her eyes looked sparkling. She looked beautiful. He was wishing he could hold her close. Just once. It always felt so good even just hugging her. Feel her soft skin. Holding her hands. Her little fingers would fit perfectly well into his. They had been so close even when they were physically so far. In different countries. And now. Here they were. Just a few foot steps away but yet not close. Steps he could never cross. If only god could grant him one wish. He would wish for her. No. He would wish for her happiness. He thought. If only things had been better. He was still not sure if he could really see her or was it just the drinks??
Monday, December 28, 2009
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Her and him..
'Why is everyone not understanding? Its not like I dont want to be there. Its just that I cant make it..'
She was hyper. As always. It was her nature. Little things would upset her.
She was hyper. As always. It was her nature. Little things would upset her.
Nothing seems to go right. There is so much chaos around. She was thinking. I cant deal with this anymore.
'Mom needs to understand that I do want to be there . For the celebration. I miss them too, but I cant just leave my work and go there. Are you listening to me??'
He was sitting there. Flipping through pages of the newspaper.
'My parents need to understand. I am already trying to catch up with work. I cant just leave work and go there, right? Liz seems to be angry on me that I am not as efficient. I am working my best but still not able to catch up. Maybe it was a bad idea to change my job. I cant deal with these pressures. I am just not as good as others. Maybe I don't deserve this job'
If only I was more intelligent. She thought to herself getting more and more restless by the minute.
'I still have to finish up those excel files that Laura sent me and the presentations. Oh my god. I dont think I can finish all this on time. Maybe I am not as capable. Maybe I should quit my job. What do you think??' She said looking towards him.
He was there. Listening to her. Looking at her all hyper. Wondering how much he loved her. Thinking about how things would have been had they not been together.
He got up and sat next to her, not saying a word. Holding her close.
'I dont know how people manage all this. I cant do it.' She said looking at him with misty eyes.
Running his fingers through her hair, rubbing her back. He hugged her.
Suddenly everything seemed to calm down. She realized as always, how calming his presence was, how soothing his aura was. How perfect they were together. He had believed in her all through and she knew it. In his arms she felt safe, loved, calm.
Suddenly everything seemed to calm down. She realized as always, how calming his presence was, how soothing his aura was. How perfect they were together. He had believed in her all through and she knew it. In his arms she felt safe, loved, calm.
'You can do this. I know it'. He said looking into her eyes.
And she knew she could do it. For him, for his faith in her. He kissed her on her forehead and left.
I can do this. she thought, wiping her tears and smiling.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Jab we Met
GRE exam done, TOEFL results out, 3 admits in my hand, University finalized, VISA interview done and off I will be to USA.. A lot had happened in these past few days, a lot was going to happen in the coming days and I knew my life was going to change completely from now on.. From Amchi Mumbai I was going to go to Uncle Sam's country.. Will I like it there?? Will I be okay being on my own?? Will I be able to live away from home not being able to meet my folks every night?? Will i survive without my friends whom I meet almost every other day?? Will be fine knowing that i am very far away from Mumbai chowpati, Thane talopali, Bandra bandstand, Hill road, Colaba causeway, Worli?? A hell lot of questions were running through my mind.. Application procedure and things after getting admits had been exhaustive.. I was happy that it's all done.. Done?? No.. It all begins here.. The next big step that I was apprehensive about, 'Finding good room-mates.'
'You should look it up on 'orkut'. Join the community of the university that you are going to go to, and search for people going there this semester', someone had told me. Orkut??? Seriously?? How reliable will that be?? How will I know who is good and who is not?? 'Do I have a better plan of action than orkut??', I asked myself. Yes, I did.. The first thing that came to my mind was calling my cousin who was studying in the same university that I was to go to. It had been a long time since I had met him and I had never really spoken to him or known him well. But then he is really a great guy and I knew he would help a lot. So sure, why not? I called him up and told him that I am coming to the same university as he is in. I didn't know at that time if he would be happy about that or not. But talking to him had helped. He told me a lot of things about my Job, about pros and cons of living on-campus and off-campus (he had suggested that I live on-campus, and I had not taken his this suggestion very seriously). I told him about finding room-mates for me and he agreed to help. But I joined the orkut community of U of H anyways.. (We(I) are all so addicted to orkut that any new activity on orkut is always welcome).
While surfing through the community members I found a few girls from Mumbai going to Houston in the fall. It was here that I saw the profile of 'R'. (That's the letter that I am going to use to refer to my 1st room-mate). She seemed fine. I looked at her communities. She was a member of communities like 'Cooking-My passion', 'People who talk on the phone late-nights', 'I love chocolates', 'Harry Potter fans', 'I love reading' and 'SIES alumni'. Our interests matched. So I added her not sure if she will accept my invitation or not. Surprisingly (I would use the word 'surprisingly' because I am very skeptical about adding people I don't know) she accepted it. So I added her on yahoo. (These days with so many ways of communication, you would want to add the person on all possible social networks and all possible messengers because you never know who is active on which one of them). I used to keep signing in on yahoo hoping to bump into her being online sometime or the other. And finally one day it happened. She was online when I was online. I buzzed her and asked her about her plans for after going to the US. We exchanged phone numbers. So far so good. By now, I had no idea what my cousin was up to all this while, if he was looking for room-mates for me or not. But having options is always good so I was trying from my side too.
Then one day I called R and asked her if she had any room-mates and if she was looking for any. She said she was to move in with 'SN' (Room-mate#2) in a 1 bed apartment but she said she will talk to SN and see if SN is okay with me and then she said if thing go well, we can move into a 2 bed apartment. So R spoke to SN and SN was fine with it. So here we were 3 of us. Our next step, finding a 4th room-mate. R being the one most active on orkut met 'SM' (room-mate#3). R told us that SM is interested in moving in with us. So we wanted to know more about SM. R told us she is from Baroda, Gujarat. 'She is a Gujarati?? Aren't they like 'Veg'??? No ways we are moving in with her.' (No offense to any of my guju friends or any other guju people but I love eating Chicken and shrimps). After probing into the matter more we found that she is not veg coz she is a Bong ('Bong'-that's the slang for Bengalis, BTW did you know that Maharashtrians are 'ghatis' and Telugus are 'gultis', no I am not a racist at all, just updating your knowledge about the slangs ;) ) plus R was very keen on letting her move in with us coz SM was a good cook too and me and SN, we had declared to R in our first meeting itself (which was in C-one (Center One mall, Vashi for readers not from Mumbai) almost a month before we were to leave for USA) that we are not the cooking types (so she was scared that she might have to do all the cooking by herself i guess ;) ). So anyways, there we were, 4 room mates, M, R, SN and SM. 3 from Mumbai, 1 from Baroda, all eating non-veg, all going to the U of H, all wanting to live off-campus, all going by the same flight (Continental airways in case you wondering which one). And this is how it started.
Here we are today almost a year since we are living together. We have lots of experiences and memories already, be it running in random directions on Newark airport so that we don't miss our connecting flight, getting all scared and hyper during the hurricane 'Ike', getting all crazy and fascinated in the huge shops of the US, going grocery shopping, doing blunders all the time like getting 'clothes softener' by mistake instead of 'detergent' (and not realizing the mistake for a long time) to wash clothes and then wondering as to why the clothes are not getting washed properly, doing time-pass on the weekends, making fun of each other, helping each other, supporting each other, dancing on loud music every Friday and the list will just go on (There are a lot of other experiences we have had together, maybe I will write about them in one of my other posts :) ). People say that we are too snobbish to talk to others but do we really care too much about what others say? (After making this statement I think maybe I am a snob, or maybe not.. huh.. whatever.. ). It's an achievement that 4 girls can live together nicely without being too bitchy (LOL) and without fighting and actually being fond of each other.
(In case you are wondering what happened to my cousin looking for room-mates for me, he did find me a room-mate. She(now my mentor) was from my department itself but by then things had worked out between us (R, SN and SM) and it would have been too bad of me to ditch them now so I did not go ahead with that)
Good to know that you reached till here and did not give up reading half way through. (I am assuming that you read the entire article and haven't jumped directly to the end (if you have go back to where you were reading before)) Just for your knowledge this is my first proper attempt in writing something for everyone to read.. I hope you like it. Enjoy..
'You should look it up on 'orkut'. Join the community of the university that you are going to go to, and search for people going there this semester', someone had told me. Orkut??? Seriously?? How reliable will that be?? How will I know who is good and who is not?? 'Do I have a better plan of action than orkut??', I asked myself. Yes, I did.. The first thing that came to my mind was calling my cousin who was studying in the same university that I was to go to. It had been a long time since I had met him and I had never really spoken to him or known him well. But then he is really a great guy and I knew he would help a lot. So sure, why not? I called him up and told him that I am coming to the same university as he is in. I didn't know at that time if he would be happy about that or not. But talking to him had helped. He told me a lot of things about my Job, about pros and cons of living on-campus and off-campus (he had suggested that I live on-campus, and I had not taken his this suggestion very seriously). I told him about finding room-mates for me and he agreed to help. But I joined the orkut community of U of H anyways.. (We(I) are all so addicted to orkut that any new activity on orkut is always welcome).
While surfing through the community members I found a few girls from Mumbai going to Houston in the fall. It was here that I saw the profile of 'R'. (That's the letter that I am going to use to refer to my 1st room-mate). She seemed fine. I looked at her communities. She was a member of communities like 'Cooking-My passion', 'People who talk on the phone late-nights', 'I love chocolates', 'Harry Potter fans', 'I love reading' and 'SIES alumni'. Our interests matched. So I added her not sure if she will accept my invitation or not. Surprisingly (I would use the word 'surprisingly' because I am very skeptical about adding people I don't know) she accepted it. So I added her on yahoo. (These days with so many ways of communication, you would want to add the person on all possible social networks and all possible messengers because you never know who is active on which one of them). I used to keep signing in on yahoo hoping to bump into her being online sometime or the other. And finally one day it happened. She was online when I was online. I buzzed her and asked her about her plans for after going to the US. We exchanged phone numbers. So far so good. By now, I had no idea what my cousin was up to all this while, if he was looking for room-mates for me or not. But having options is always good so I was trying from my side too.
Then one day I called R and asked her if she had any room-mates and if she was looking for any. She said she was to move in with 'SN' (Room-mate#2) in a 1 bed apartment but she said she will talk to SN and see if SN is okay with me and then she said if thing go well, we can move into a 2 bed apartment. So R spoke to SN and SN was fine with it. So here we were 3 of us. Our next step, finding a 4th room-mate. R being the one most active on orkut met 'SM' (room-mate#3). R told us that SM is interested in moving in with us. So we wanted to know more about SM. R told us she is from Baroda, Gujarat. 'She is a Gujarati?? Aren't they like 'Veg'??? No ways we are moving in with her.' (No offense to any of my guju friends or any other guju people but I love eating Chicken and shrimps). After probing into the matter more we found that she is not veg coz she is a Bong ('Bong'-that's the slang for Bengalis, BTW did you know that Maharashtrians are 'ghatis' and Telugus are 'gultis', no I am not a racist at all, just updating your knowledge about the slangs ;) ) plus R was very keen on letting her move in with us coz SM was a good cook too and me and SN, we had declared to R in our first meeting itself (which was in C-one (Center One mall, Vashi for readers not from Mumbai) almost a month before we were to leave for USA) that we are not the cooking types (so she was scared that she might have to do all the cooking by herself i guess ;) ). So anyways, there we were, 4 room mates, M, R, SN and SM. 3 from Mumbai, 1 from Baroda, all eating non-veg, all going to the U of H, all wanting to live off-campus, all going by the same flight (Continental airways in case you wondering which one). And this is how it started.
Here we are today almost a year since we are living together. We have lots of experiences and memories already, be it running in random directions on Newark airport so that we don't miss our connecting flight, getting all scared and hyper during the hurricane 'Ike', getting all crazy and fascinated in the huge shops of the US, going grocery shopping, doing blunders all the time like getting 'clothes softener' by mistake instead of 'detergent' (and not realizing the mistake for a long time) to wash clothes and then wondering as to why the clothes are not getting washed properly, doing time-pass on the weekends, making fun of each other, helping each other, supporting each other, dancing on loud music every Friday and the list will just go on (There are a lot of other experiences we have had together, maybe I will write about them in one of my other posts :) ). People say that we are too snobbish to talk to others but do we really care too much about what others say? (After making this statement I think maybe I am a snob, or maybe not.. huh.. whatever.. ). It's an achievement that 4 girls can live together nicely without being too bitchy (LOL) and without fighting and actually being fond of each other.
(In case you are wondering what happened to my cousin looking for room-mates for me, he did find me a room-mate. She(now my mentor) was from my department itself but by then things had worked out between us (R, SN and SM) and it would have been too bad of me to ditch them now so I did not go ahead with that)
Good to know that you reached till here and did not give up reading half way through. (I am assuming that you read the entire article and haven't jumped directly to the end (if you have go back to where you were reading before)) Just for your knowledge this is my first proper attempt in writing something for everyone to read.. I hope you like it. Enjoy..
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Everything has a beginning..
When I created this blog, I didn't have any particular theme in my mind.. Over time, what I want to pen down here kept changing.. So I have decided to have no particular theme for this blog.. I am just going to write what I feel like at that point of time.. So here is a blog just for sharing some of my thoughts, imaginations and experiences with you guys.. I am not a good writer but hopefully in the course of time I think I might get there.. Hope you all will enjoy reading this as much as I enjoy writing it..
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