Khel Mandala...

Its 12 at night and I am probably crazy writing a blog at this time on something that I am thinking about at this very minute, not giving too much time for my thoughts to answer themselves. But I desperately feel like writing about this. I just saw what I think is one of the most powerful marathi movie called 'Natarang'. And it has put me into thinking big time.. There are just a lot of questions running in my head right now. Was it fate that gunnya had to become a Naacha?? Was that his purpose for this lifetime? Was it his past life karma that people close to him were devastated coz of his decisions and actions? Does that essentially make him a bad person? Was it their life purpose to be suffering through this? Can we fight our fate? Should we fight our fate? Would he have been better off had he decided to not be a nacha and just be a normal farmer? After all the suffering that he went to, he did achieve all that he wanted to in his life. Will this be enough for him when he dies? Will he have regrets about any decisions? What is our fate? What is the purpose of our life? Is it something very mediocre? Will most of us be like the other etc people in their tamasha? Do we have to fight hard and fight for what we believe in, to fulfill our purpose in some life time or the other to go to a higher level in the pyramid of spiritual growth? Are we too lost already to even know what we want? READING TOO MUCH INTO A MOVIE + THINKING TOO MUCH ABOUT IT + RELATING IT TO ALL POSSIBLE THINGS + A WEIRD STATE OF MIND + LATE NIGHT TIREDNESS = A MESSED UP ME